Butterfly Girl Season 4: God is Present in the Becoming

Next Sunday, July 5, Season 4 of the Butterfly Girl Podcast begins.

As I have spent the past several months praying, writing, recording, and preparing for this season, I have found myself reflecting on just how much can change in a relatively short period of time.

This past year has been one of tremendous growth in my own life. It has also been a year marked by grief, transition, new beginnings, uncertainty, healing, and countless reminders that God is still at work, even when life feels unfinished.

Perhaps that is why the theme for this new season emerged so naturally. Living the Transformation: From Wound to Wholeness.

For much of my life, I viewed healing as a destination. I believed that if I worked hard enough, prayed hard enough, attended enough therapy sessions, or simply waited long enough, eventually I would arrive at a place where the wounds no longer hurt, the questions disappeared, and everything finally made sense.
I imagined healing as an ending.

What I have discovered instead is that healing is often a way of living. There is no finish line where we suddenly become perfectly whole. There is no moment when grief permanently disappears, fear never returns, or we stop needing God.

Instead, there is a lifelong invitation to continue becoming. To continue healing. To continue trusting. To continue allowing God to transform us. And honestly, that realization has been both humbling and freeing because it means that we do not have to wait until we have everything figured out before we begin living fully. We do not have to be completely healed before God can use us. We do not have to hide the unfinished parts of our stories. This season was born from that truth.

Over the coming weeks, we will have honest conversations about authenticity, grief, identity, faith, trust, prayer, community, and what it means to live fully alive in God while still carrying wounds, questions, and unresolved pieces of our stories. We will talk about learning to live unhidden. We will explore the difference between performing faith and experiencing God as a loving companion. We will examine how suffering can shape us without defining us. And throughout it all, we will return again and again to the truth that God is present in the becoming.

One of the reasons I chose the butterfly as the symbol for this podcast last year is because transformation has always resonated deeply with me. A butterfly does not emerge instantly. There is hidden work. There is waiting. There are long seasons when nothing appears to be happening. Yet, beneath the surface, transformation is unfolding.

I suspect many find themselves in seasons like that.

This past year and a half has reinforced the reality that some of life's most significant transformations occur quietly and often imperceptibly. Growth rarely happens in dramatic moments. More often, it unfolds through ordinary days, difficult conversations, honest prayer, grief, therapy, journaling, and the simple decision to continue showing up.

There have been seasons in my own life when healing felt painfully slow. Seasons when little appeared to be changing and when questions seemed to outnumber answers. In looking back, it has become clear that God was often doing His deepest work during those very times.

Transformation rarely announces itself. More often, it unfolds quietly beneath the surface.

It unfolds in choosing authenticity over performance, in learning to trust again after disappointment, in receiving love after years of self-protection, in speaking truth after years of silence, and in allowing oneself to be fully known.

The older I become, the more convinced I am that wholeness is not the absence of wounds. Rather, wholeness is learning to live with openness, hope, and trust while allowing God to continually transform those wounds into places of grace.

That is the heart of this season.

My hope for Living the Transformation: From Wound to Wholeness is that it will offer encouragement to those who are still becoming. My hope is that these conversations will serve as a reminder that healing is possible, that growth often occurs in hidden places, and that God remains present even in the unfinished parts of our stories.